Sorry for my blogging absence as of late. The past two weeks have been a total emotional
rollercoaster. We've been trying to make some huge decisions regarding the next "stage" of our lives and it's just been exhausting. As most of you know, Doug's last day of work in the Air Force is the 31st of this month. His actual retirement date is 1 Feb 2009. For the majority of 2007, we had been planning on moving to Wisconsin upon his retirement. As of February of this year, we changed our minds yet again and decided to head to Alabama. Our plan was to make the move to the South when Anna went on her Christmas break. When we learned we were going to be adding to the family we decided to stay through the end of January to have the baby and then move. About 14 days ago, Doug found what he described as "THE perfect home" on realtor.com. The home was in Wisconsin. The house seemed so good that it reopened our discussion regarding Wisconsin. We changed our minds yet again and decided that with the economy the way it is there would be many more job opportunities available up Chicago way...not to mention Wisconsin is just a good place to live and raise kids. Doug purchased a ticket and flew out there this past week to look at houses. What I've neglected to mention is that he decided if we did indeed find "THE house" we should move at the end of November prior to the birth of the baby. No pressure, right? Anyway, the house that caused all the initial
hubbub ended up off our final list due to the age and asbestos concerns as we would be looking to do some renovations down the road. After Doug viewed about seven properties on Thursday, we narrowed the search down to two incredible homes with beautiful land. We discussed it throughout the evening Thursday and then again Friday morning. I was just a basket case and spent most of my time in tears. This may sound silly. Doug even kept telling me that I should be smiling, not weeping. For those military spouses out there, maybe you can understand. You move from house to house year after year doing your best to make a home for the family. You put everything off....for years....because it's not your permanent home. I've been in a lot of your homes and you guys take it further than we do. We don't paint or buy curtains although we do hang pictures on the wall. We usually don't plant any flowers because you're not normally around to watch them grow. Doug often says, "Any amount of money that goes into this home comes out of our permanent home". So, you wait, and you save, and you dream....knowing that you'll get there eventually. Well, here we are. It's the permanent home and it's a HUGE deal. It's the place you're going to raise your family and hopefully spend the next 20-30 years of your life. There are expectations and dreams built around this structure that are hard to describe. So, finally after laborious discussions over and over, we decided to just bring Doug home and talk about it over the week. We found that neither of our two favorite homes (although both amazing) really fit the bill as far as all that we had pictured for our "final" home. Doug was still anxious to just get up there and go into a rental home. You know how it is...when you make a decision, you just want to implement it...get going. We've been thinking about this for a decade and now that it's almost here, we don't want to wait any longer. However, I just couldn't see rushing up through snow covered passes in the winter, finding a new doctor, unpacking, making Christmas happen, having a baby and feeling settled....IF it wasn't for "THE house". So, we finally agreed to stay here through our lease extension which now runs to March. It answers a lot of questions for us regarding employment for Doug, the birth of the baby, travel outside of winter, and gets us closer to the sale of our two homes in NE and LA where we currently have tenants. We both feel good about this decision and a bit relieved. While we were laboring over this, I just didn't feel like talking or writing or doing much. Well, I take that back. What did I do with the possibility of an impending move on the horizon??? Did I begin to organize, clean out and prepare for movers? Oh, no. I think I was in serious denial. I made 2 and began work on a third tutu for the girls, planned Lauren's pirate birthday party... for January, worked on Christmas cards, studied countless before and after pictures for renovation ideas on a cape cod that we
couldn’t afford and picked out fabric as a backdrop for Jacob’s photo and birth announcement. Real smart, huh? So, that's my story. I think I'm back now and I'll try to get some new posts up soon...until the next drama unfolds. :)